Some Changes…

Hi all. 

I started this blog over two years ago with the sole intention of recording the events in my family life.  It was my way of “scrapbooking” since I’ve never been able to do real scrapbooks.  I didn’t have the artistic talent to cut and paste backgrounds and stickers and photos together, but I knew how to tell stories, and I liked taking photos to accompany them.

I initially told a few friends and family members about my blog, though way down deep in my heart, part of me really did hope I’d be one of those famous bloggers who could actually make some money doing something I enjoyed.

And I do enjoy blogging!  I like writing.  Every kind comment, either in the Comments section of my blog or in person sent me over the moon, seriously!  I’ve enjoyed telling you guys the stories and random thoughts of mine that sometimes but not always didn’t have much to do with my family.  One of my favorites ever was this one.  It was kind of dumb, really, but I loved thinking it through and writing it!  But I realized recently that

a) I’m not going to be a famous blogger (I know!  I can’t believe it either!) and

b)  I’ve gotten away from documenting my family stuff. 

You may not agree with the last one.  You may think, “Gosh, she bores us with pictures of her children all the time!”  But really, that’s where I’ve reined myself in for the last year and a half.  Knowing I was building a (rather small) audience of readers who were not necessarily my mother, I was careful not to write too much about the kids.  Not to brag too much.  Not to gush about the cute things they’ve said.  Not to bore you guys with yet another sports photo. 

I was in something of a funk last week.  I did a lot of thinking, not just about my blog, but about my life overall, and I’m making changes, people!  I’m going to be on Facebook less (and I’m not playing any of the games on there at all), I’ll be checking in to Pinterest less, my house is going to be cleaner, I’m going to exercise more, and I’m going to try to be a nicer person.  I’m not as nice as I was 12 years ago.  I could blame that on the children, but….

Well.  Actually, I’m totes going to blame it on the children!  (I’m also blaming my extra weight, my wrinkles, my grey hairs, and my insatiable need for sleep on them.)  I also need to find a job.  I’ve been searching half-heartedly, but I need to get on the stick about that.  I want to feel satisfaction at the end of the day, but mostly I just feel tired and conscience stricken about how little I’ve accomplished, not just because I don’t have a job, but because I’m not doing my Stay At Home Job very well.

So anyhoo, my plan is to make my blog private.  I want to be able to write about my kids more and worry about my audience less.  I’m still going to do my book reviews and recipes because I want to record those, and I’ll still write my random thoughts on things here and there.  But I’m going to write about my family more.  Like how Jack realized there was a hole in his pants at church today, just below the zipper, and he couldn’t stop playing with it in church today.  The hole!  Nothing else!  (I think).  I don’t even want to know what the people around us must have been thinking.

If you’d still like to occasionally check in with my blog, I can add you to a list of people who can access the blog.  Let me know, either in the Comments section,via email, or in person…  I’ll probably let this post up for a week or so before I do that.

Thanks for being a great audience and wish me luck!

                                                                           The end…kind of.